Is it all so true?

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
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Hey all! Back to update again.
I'm listening to Colin Raye's Love, Me. My heart is melting once again, lyrics touches my heart. It can never get more realistic for me. Karen ( my cousin) used this song to do up a photo montage about my grandma short while after my grandma passed away, can never forget the sight, the smile, the acting cute to entertain her grandchildren, always giving us her very best.
Well! That is a whole load of memories that can never be forgotten, causing me to cry really badly when i sing the song "Amazing Grace"
Popo, how are you now in heaven? I hope your hole at your throat and neck area has closed up, wearing the beautiful white dress, dont have to depend on any walking stick or crutches and dancing around really happily everyday. Always remember that you love singing, are you singing daily? Miss your voice and whenever you cant really pronounce my name nor jiejie's name, when you will make me buy food for you and kiss you on your cheek whenever i see you. Especially when you demand me to share my sweets with you and the really funny expression when you ate sour Skittles sweet. I can imagine you with your favorite jade bangles, and "sailormoon" pose. I saw you smiling when we celebrated christmas of 2008, weird thing was, i saw you sitting at your favorite spot and smiling. It really brought the warmth into my heart, i felt so cosy and happy because i know you were also spending the joyous occasion with us. However, popo, can you promise me that you wont ask gong gong to join you for now? at least allow me to spend more love and time with him first, i felt really moved when i did not go back for a while and when i turned up, he was so happy to see me. When i kissed him, i felt really really happy too. Dont worry, i place a space for you and him to both be in my heart, you have never been put away. I always feel very secure because you too! I am working now already, learning to grow even more each day, Chinese new year is coming, once in a while, or rather, quite often mama will mention about the things you like to do and things all of us know that you enjoys, it also reminds me that you passed away for nearly two years already. I miss holding your hand and say popo wo ai ni, but i know i will have the chance! Right? i will still get to kiss your cheek and say inaccurate Cantonese and make you laugh. Seeing you giggle is just fascinating! I really misses you badly.

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Sorry for the kind of emotional post, just had all those feelings and i havent really had a chance to tell her all, though i know she is no longer on earth but i believe she will understand what i am saying.

-in conclusion, i miss all! Chinese new year is meant to not only have fun but really enjoy their company! PLEASE ENJOY THE TRUE MEANING OF THIS FESTIVE SEASON!
LOVES ALL!
~Jasmine signing off.

CNY approaching! Does that spells more hongbaos this year? =)

I'm sitting now infront of BF's computer and listening him talking to his friend. I am feeling super hungry! DId not manage to eat either breakfast nor lunch and BF's mama is kind enough to ask me over to drink her soup. She cooks really nice food! So i predict it will be another sumptous meal!
Yesterday felt like another sweet sweet quality time spent with BF! We met up after he made a trip to his grandma's house, before service to eat something more expensive that was delicious! We went to citylink and ate Japanese Pasta! So happy and felt so satisfied! Softshell crab pasta was a "Mmmmmmmmm..." not mentioning about BF's Curry Tori pasta, which was also another plus plus to me.
We had a wonderful service and then off to Kenrus and Jiejin's grandma's wake. The funny thing is that, it did not really feel like a wake. Tell me about it, sitting there, chit chatting, laughing and everything else. It felt more like a type of fellowship. We had a lot of other "company" over there too.
*thinking* the year 2009 has arrived, so many things have taken place, so many things have change. Wonder is it the time to say," all the old has passed away and on coming in with the new." or "more memories have just been form, harder to flush your brain away." *laughs* Some random thoughts i suppose, talk to Tengz last night for like a five minutes phone call, had a kind of cute conversation,
Jas: Aunty! very long never see you already lehz, when you can actually NOT be busy?
Tengz: busy lehz, i try lahz, call you when i not busy lohz.
Jas: Huh... You recently like only contact me once a month lehz, like my "da yi ma" lehz. so irregular some more.
Tengz: Then you must be healthy then i can come regularly mahz.

*faints* But i think this is just her way to brighten up and place colours in my life.
Signing off, Jas~

BF is my lover boy!

Hello! Once again it has return to January. However, things will be going in a different manner i suppose? I have finally waved my hands and bid farewell to studying life and step into a whole new level of working work. Yes! I said working world! Think some will be saying," still long, you have not even manage to get a job yet." Well, hey! You are wrong! because, I HAVE JUST GOTTEN A JOB! -beams- On the last day of the year man!
Everything goes on like this, it was just like any ordinary day ( sounds so cliche) i went downstairs to get my newspaper to embark my third day of newspaper job hunting day. i flipped through the papers, at first i could not find anything, so i put it aside while i tried searching from the internet. Then i thought to myself, so waste money, so i decided to screen through every single recruitment section, and I FOUND IT! It says, hiring photographer who can work well with children and babies! I called the company immediately,after an hour or so, they called me, ask me some questions then ask me to go down for a interview.
The place looks very cosy, before going, i was praying real hard that i can get this job because, it sounds so interesting and it is in my field of industry. Then the next thing i know when i looked around the office, i saw a CROSS! The interview was unique, the guy who is leaving soon and supposedly i am taking over his position as the photographer tested my skills and knowledge and even my photoshop skills. Thank God that i owns a mac, they uses iMac for photoshop, he was okay with my "touching up skills" he was like, "it is okay, but.... never mind, i can teach you another time" Man! the word encourages me and ensured me that there will be this another time. then *tadaa* i have gotten the job! The lady boss is really nice, the best part is, she is also a christian which makes me feel so thankful!
She seems really excited and happy too, she was like telling me," so happy that i employed a christian"
She then told me about the details and stuff, she also told me that before me, a guy who had more experience than me came for the interview as well, but she did not feel comfortable with the idea and then *poof* i came and interview for the job which was the more ideal person i think! -beams-
Well, January will the month when i can pick more skills from them and February will be officially on board day. Though she will "try" me for the 3 months, but she ensured me that once everything is more or less okay, she will increase a little in my pay. Wow! So exciting!

Then i went to meet my dearest BF! Was thinking of slacking at his house, then his parents wanted to eat curry fish head, so i tagged along and we went down to little india. The food was okay, but the fish was kind of fishy. Yeah, sounds dunb i know but really, had a very fishy smell. I think BF was smart to eat his chicken because the chicken tasted really good! then we went back to his place, slacked there, he played some really gruesome game while i played his play station2.

Waited for the Mr. Patrick to call and off we went to vivo for the countdown, i never been to any countdowns before because i see no point in squeezing here and there but i went. Our initial plan was not Vivo was actually marina, but according to Patrick's friend, there is like fully packed. Oh, and there were people fighting i suppose, because we saw a man being bandaged and was escort by policeman after the countdown. Was talking to Seow Wei just now, don't understand, why they want to face injuries and policeman at the start of a new year.
Lover boy! Thank you for the fully flavored 2 months! All those sweet, sour and bitter times that we went through, marks a smile in my heart! -loves-